Getting My Knickers Twisted – AGAIN!
A most uncomfortable event, and yet I repeat and repeat and repeat!
My current knicker twisting is worrying about how on earth we will get home in time for the children to start school on 18th August. It seems an impossible task and no matter how hard I think about it, worry away, calculate and plan there is no answer to be had.
We are at the mercy of the wind and sea and eventually the tide and no matter how hard I “think” about it I can’t change those events AND they are all in the future , so completey unknowable.
It's always there right above us, we just need to look.
This crazy thinking complicates life and certainly stops me living in the present, being here right now. Instead my head is marching on trying to figure it all out, mileage, rest times, practicalities like refuelling, shopping, laundry and so on, AND what about all the places we hopes to visit.
Amazing what we can see if we stay here and notice.
oh no it’s TOOOOOOOO MUCH!
I know this is complete madness and the sensible thing is to just GO WITH THE FLOW. So what if we don’t get back then, no-one is going to die and we won’t loose the love of friends and family, so
IT DOES NOT MATTER.
So why is it so blinking hard to get into this NOW place and stay there.
A simple start to the day
It’s all that conditioning in my head, those little brain connections firing off telling me I should do this, that or the other, making out like it’s ALL super important. What boloney!!!
I’M MAKING ANOTHER BID FOR SIMPLICITY AND FREEDOM FOLKS
My intention is set and I’m taking on the constraints and conventions lodged in my mind over decades of conditioning, I refuse to be dictated to by all those little neurones firing off. I know there’s abetter way and that’s where I’m off to.
I’m using all the tools in my arsenal and I’m staying put, right here, right now……..it’s a lovely place you know, one I visit more often now, but not enough.
Anyone coming?
MairiStones
Hi Mairi, I’m trying to go that free flow way… and am finding that it is REMARKABLE how little one can achieve in a day when going slowly and not taking anything too seriously. Am feeling as if this is a year for finding, or perhaps forging a bit of a new identity for myself… much slower and less driven and more focussed on the family. About time, some might say!!
Yes, even on this little boat, there can be too much to do and too many things so life doesn’t seem simple. I’m quite looking forward to getting home and starting from scratch.
I’m convinced that the slower life is better, less stress, more connection to everything and everyone, and to focus on family I think is a good thing. X
PS Just a thought… couldn’t the kids fly home with you and get settled in whilst someone else helped Ash bring the boat back… not wanting to add to your confusion though! Will post a photo on Facebook about this for you.
Oh no, I don’t fancy that at all, though at least one crew member might. Really nothing is THAT important, and certainly not a few weeks of school. it’s only thinking that makes anything seem so. X