An encounter with self first thing in the morning.
Julia Cameron wrote a book called the Artist’s Way, a spiritual journey to recover and discover your creative self.
She suggests you write something called Morning Pages which are to be done first thing in the morning on waking, before ANYTHING else, and she is quite emphatic about it.
In one of her workshops I attended there was a huge amount of discussion about this and many questions asked, all trying to find a reason not to do them, to postpone them, shorten them, basically to change them to something different from what they are.
They are an encounter with self. The theory is that our conscious mind is not up and fully functioning for about 40 mins after we wake so that is the time to write to allow ourselves to pour out onto the page. We don’t censor in anyway we just keep writing. These are not words for others, it is not a diary or reflection, nor prose or poetry.
It doesn’t matter what we day or how we say it, no grammar is required, no sentences or paragraphs if that is how it happens, you just need to write and not to stop.
When I facilitate The Artist’s Way course I always encounter resistance to this idea. There is every reason under the sun why people cannot do it. We resist because we are going on a journey to meet ourselves. Much of what we will encounter is moaning, negative, whinging about our daily lives, work, friends and family, the world at large, but we will also find other parts, deeper more hidden aspects of ourselves, we uncover long buried dreams and desires, we awaken.
Yes it can be tedious, boring, hard and it can be wonderful, enlightening, releasing.
I found it was a great way to begin my day, in particular to surrender to paper all my fears, anxieties, worries, anger and distress. I felt unburdened and began my day more free, lighter and less bogged down by the day ahead.
It was also delightful to flow with ideas, dreams, inspiration and creativity; to feel more alive and connected to myself.
During the course we write these pages as faithfully as we can and later we begin to read back. In this process we get to see ourselves, hear ourselves. of course it’s not always pleasant but it is helpful to be made aware for awareness is the first step towards change.
For what seemed like years I began each morning with “ I am so tired”. Eventually i was sick writing, tired of seeing it, tired of hearing it and i started to do something about it. This is one of the gifts we are given the opportunity for change.
So I would say give them a go, persevere, write how you find them frustrating, difficult, nonsense, write it all and just keep on writing, you may be amazed!