Come for a Stroll Instead

I’ve taken up the challenge of rebalancing my digestive system. It seems I have hosted an overgrowth of candida, certain bacteria and a parasite which account for many of my health issues and digestive discomfort. As I run down towards the end of the third week of this roller-coaster ride I feel able to write a little of my experience. IT”S NOT EASY! Last night I dissolved in a pool sad, sorry for my self, weary, lonely tears. I’d lost...

My Past is Dying

“There is only one courage and that is the  courage to go on dying to the past, not to collect it, not to accumulate it, not to  cling to it. We all cling to the past, and because we cling to the past we become  unavailable to the present.” Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh I honestly can’t be bothered trying to explain in any fancy way all that I have been through over the last few weeks, it’s too complicated and deep within in: Being without...

Not Another Shake

“Should I add some green stuff, have I got enough protein?” “Oh God it gives everything that funny taste?” “You need lots of protein though?” “Yes but it tastes better with avocado or banana anyway and I’ve got strawberries today” ” Do I put too much in these shakes, maybe less would suite my digestion better, oh……” The daily dilemma of breakfast. AND it’s all wrong. I...

Hope from Despair

The last month was a tough one CFS/ME wise. I ached a lot, neck, shoulders and back and sometimes my back was so painful that putting my socks on became a major operation. I felt exhausted a lot, had headaches, truly terrible digestion and slept during the day for hours at a time. I’ve described the place it took me to  in my recent post, Depression Fog and now want to fill in the detail. Since returning to Rowan in mid Jan we have faced some pretty...

Depression Fog

It snakes around me like a fog and I lose myself. This part of me has been around for a long time and I thought I had it under control until recently, when it came knocking again.  When she comes she whispers to me about the futility and pointlessness of it all, creating arguments to trash, belittle and lay waste to everything in my life. Usually, after a period of bleakness where I basically annihilate all the good in my life and prove to myself why...

Learning the Lessons

“Based on my experience in successfully treating at least 1,500 cases of cfs, the return to health involves 3 stages. First, you put the viruses involved into remission. Second, you have to repair the cellular and systemic damage. Third, the patient must ‘learn the lessons of the disease’ so the same lifestyle and emotional patterns are not repeated the future. In general, most of my cfs patients do well fairly quickly if they follow our...