Fear!!!!!!!!!

What if I’m making a big mistake and regret getting rid of something? Fear has raised its ugly head. Could it be that I am in some sort of madness; that I’m  possessed with a crazy notion which I will snap out of only to discover that in my haste I have turned my life upside down and inside out and there’s no going back? The “what’s if’s” are flooding in. What if I’m making a huge mistake. What if I...

It’s The Only Place To BE

and still I wander back over past conversations and experiences things I “should” have done or said. obscure moments in time, thoughts, feelings actions from a life time ago relentlessly playing them over as if I can change what been. AND forward I go marching into the unknown wondering, planning, wishing, hoping, imagining outcomes and conversations, playing out whole scenarios in my head. We’ve had a fight, made up and fought again and you...

Missing Parts of My Body

This morning, just like many others the first thing I did was to meditate. I followed Jon Kabat Zinn’s Body Scan Meditation where you bring your attention to each part of your body in turn, breathing into it and out of it. It’s comprehensive and covers the outer body from your toes to the crown of the head. The only thing is that this morning I missed the top and ankle of my left foot, my left knee, right lower leg, hips, lower back, chest,...

Monday Meditation – Pat Yourself on the Back

Soon after my diagnosis with CFS/ME I came across 4 cd meditation set by Jon Kabat Zinn. These cd’s form the basis of an 8 week programme used in his Stress Reduction Clinic, where studies have shown that mindfulness meditation is highly effective in dealing with stress, chronic pain and illness. What struck me more than anything and still affects me every time I hear it was his reminders to: “congratulate yourself for taking the time, the...